//Locked//( exploring my human sideCollapse )
//Locked to Xander//
Dear Xander. This is me dropping lines...No rush though. I may be busy for a while. I'd say work, but it's not just work. I knew this wasn't the line of work for me...I tried to tell... But no, so now I'm here all emotionally attached.
The first rule in this business is don't get involved. But I think that's kind of hard. I mean when you're surrounded by humanity it sort of grows on you. Like a fungus. With spores and everything. And you can't separate yourself from spores. They get all mingly, and you get mingly...and suddenly everything's hitting a little too close to home.
Anyway I'm still trying to figure out if I can do any good in this job. I really want to. I don't like seeing people hurt. Unless of course they're obnoxious or deserve it in which case I don't really care what happens to them.
But honestly, and I have some sort of personal experience here, sometimes people think you deserve it,the getting hurt I mean, and you don't. People can't help the life they were thrown into. Only what they do with it. I know, it sounds like a crock. But it's true. And I think when it comes down to it, even someone who's spent a lifetime causing pain and suffering deserves to be happy. Because really, they're just a person. Nothing more, nothing less. The same as everyone else. In the end there aren't heroes, or villains. Just the knowledge that you meant something.
So that's how goes the...counseling. Hope that thing at work went well. Oh, and Lilah really liked her flowers. She probably would've liked them more if they came from someone else. But I think I saw her smile. That was a really stand up thing to do.
//Locked to Spike//
Hey Buddy, you okay? For the record, if you and Buffy get into a cat fight I'm on your side. Selfishness is fine, when it doesn't hurt anyone. But people should consider the feelings of others.You don't just use someone for sex and discard them. Sure it's be nice. But it doesn't work that way. First they tell you they love you, and then you get all attached. Next thing you know you're sacrificing yourself...
Plus Angel? Girls name... Sorry. Getting sidetracked.
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